Going back in memories
Sitting here and feel
What you have lost
Is there no way back?
Still love you, miss you
You´ll be always in my heart
Love you more than anything
Miss you and I´ll ever do
And now the rain begins to fall
Can´t believe what
I have done, still need time
Will you be there for me
Or won´t you cross my way again?
Stupid words and funny jokes
I leave them all behind
Cannot look into your eyes
Without feeling sadness, your love
Still love you, miss you
You´ll be always in my heart
Love you more than anything
Miss you and I´ll ever do
And now the rain begins to fall
All I can say is sorry
Just take a look at me now
All you can see is that I need you
Now our rain begins to fall
(c) 15.05.2002
raining1982 - 17. Sep, 15:16
Sunshine is gone
He´s walking through the dark
Running in a sea of tears
Everytime he´s kidding something
But nobody knows
How he really feels
You can call him crazy
Perhaps you´re right
Don´t ask him why
He has given up his fight
Friends to meet, a girl to love
Why do we expect too much?
It´s not us and it´s not him
Where are those friends?
Who is that girl?
We´ll never see... oh why
You can call him crazy
Perhaps you´re right
Don´t try to understand why
He has given up his fight
Crazy and alone
Alone alone alone
Alone he is and crazy
Crazy crazy crazy
Still alone and he´ll ever be
Oh... why can´t I thank you?
Isn´t he funny enough?
You don´t want a tear
You don´t want a smile
There´s nothing you want
So don´t call him crazy
Don´t tell me he´s alone
Crazy and alone
Alone alone alone
Lovely so deep inside
Someone special someone special
Still crazy and he´ll ever be
Oh... why can´t you see?
Darkness is gone
He´s still kidding sometimes
He´s not the one we see
His fears will stop and he´ll grow
Never forget what he does
Please don´t call him crazy
Deep inside a broken heart
But help he´ll find
He´s living the way he likes
And he´ll ever do
Oh... why can´t you see
Oh... why can´t I thank you
It ain´t easy but see the chance
It ain´t easy
It ain´t easy
Feel the heavenly love you´ve lost
(c) 10.04.2002
raining1982 - 17. Sep, 15:14
She was a child
Free and happy
Then she grew up to a beautiful girl
Free and happy, too
Why should she loose her smile?
No, you´ll never know
Never know what made her laugh
Oh... no, you´ll never
Just a look into her eyes
Something special, something rare
Just a look
Can you see it?
See heaven in her eyes
Time passed by, times were changing
Beautiful girl was dancing
She danced on stage (Oh... her world)
Free and happy
Why should she loose her dances?
No, you´ll never know
Never know what made her dance
Oh... no, you´ll never
Today she is like a flower
You can break her
She is sad and she cries
You can hurt her (Oh... you can)
Wait for the day she´ll be back
Just a look into her eyes
Something special, something rare
Just a look
Can you see it?
See heaven in her eyes
Hey girl, where are you now?
Did you have to go?
We´re waiting for you, but I know
You are in a better place
A better world (yes... your world)
No, you´ll never know
Never know what made her cry
Oh... no, you´ll never
Never see heaven in her eyes again
(c) 13.01.2002
raining1982 - 17. Sep, 15:12
The first sight
You look into his face
But do you see behind his mask?
He is laughing all time
You cannot believe
That he seems to be happy again
The last sight
Now you are getting closer
Take a look into those dark blue eyes
With many tears holding back
This mouth, crying for help without any sound
And you cry
You are touched by his eyes
Now you realize his life
He´ll never make it
You know deep inside he is crying
He needs help
But he´ll never ask for it...
You turn away
´Cause he smiled his biggest smile
And you cannot take no more
So you leave, with tears on your cheeks
But you know
One day he´ll thank you with love...
(c) 07.01.2002 / 11.01.2002
raining1982 - 17. Sep, 15:10
Brocken shadows in the dark
Everything around is destroyed
Why does nobody help?
Why does nobody seem to care?
I do, ´cause it´s the struggle to survive
Some struggle against myself
Just need those brocken shadows in the dark
But no one seems to care!
(c) 09.12.2001
raining1982 - 17. Sep, 15:08
I´m walking down the street
It´s a cold, long night
I´m scared but nobody seems to care
Why am I here
In this cold, long night?
Where to go? Where can I stay?
Is there someone out there
Who´ll walk with me
Through this cold, long night?
Oh... I know, that´s just
A nobodys´ game,
a nobodys´ world
where you can´t grow and
where you can´t stay
I´m only hungry to be loved, too...
Yes I know, that´s just
A nobodys´ game,
a nobodys´ wold
where nobody seems to care
(c) 01.09.2001
raining1982 - 17. Sep, 15:06
I used to laugh, I used to talk
I used to be with my friends
And I used to be happy
I used to know
What I was living for
But now I am crying
I just have thoughts but
I don´t wanna talk
I´m all alone, I´m just sad
I think I wouldn´t resist if I´d die
´cause I only learn when I´m burning
and that´s what I have to fight for
Don´t try to change my direction
So let me go, let me be free
Free like some angels on their way
I don´t wanna fly as high
But just want to see their paradise
Please don´t cry and ask
Where the once so little happy girl has gone...
I´m just there... somewhere...
Never try to make me smile
just try to be there and then
I´ll come back someday...
Never ask me why...
(c) 25.07.2001
raining1982 - 17. Sep, 15:02
Ein schwarzer Schleier umhüllt mich
Es ist die Angst, die mich auffrisst
Die sind Depressionen die mich quälen
Alles ist kalt wie Eis
Ich komme nicht weiter voran
Irgendwo stehen geblieben im Dunkel der Zeit
Kein Zurück mehr, keine Vergangenheit
Was nützt mir das, was mal war
Kein Entrinnen mehr, keine Zukunft
Es nützt mir nichts, was irgendwann mal ist
Ich fühle die Mauern, die mich umgeben
Immer mächtiger werdende Grenzen
Es zählt nur Angst und Trauer
Andere Gefühle gibt es nicht
Kein Licht im Dunkel um zu sehen
Das innere Ich wird zerrissen
Gefangen wie in einem schlechten Traum
Zerstört und für die Zeit ungeschehen gemacht
Das Eis bricht, aber ich falle nicht
Die Kanten tun mir weh
Doch was kümmert das mich
Der Schmerz ist egal, ich lebe damit
Finde mich ab, aber kann es nicht aushalten
Kann nicht zusehen, wie alles zerrissen wird
All das, was gelebt hat wird nicht mehr so sein
Wird kalt sein und tot
Und was wird dann?
(c) 21.10.2006
raining1982 - 22. Okt, 14:23
Es ist das rot, was mich fasziniert.
Rot wie Liebe.
Die rote Rose, die ich dir geschenkt habe.
An deren Dorn ich mich gestochen habe.
Rot wie Herz.
Das rote Herz, dass ich dir gemalt habe.
Das mein Herz zum weinen gebracht hat.
Rot wie Blut.
Das Blut, das einfach kommt und geht.
Es ist das Blut, das mich fasziniert.
Ich rede mir ein, dass es nicht weh tut.
Nicht der Dorn, der meine Haut zerrissen hat.
Nicht das gemalte Herz, dass mein Herz zerissen hat.
Ich rede mir ein, dass es keine Rolle spielt.
Warum es weh tut.
Was kann ich schon ändern.
Ich schaue nur zu in meinem Leben.
Schaue zu, als wäre ich nicht Ich.
Es fasziniert mich zu zerstören, was mir gehört.
Es fasziniert mich zu zerstören, was Ich bin.
(c) 01.10.2006
raining1982 - 1. Okt, 20:51
Du bist das Alles und Nichts für mich.
In dir liegen meine Wünsche.
Kann nur an dich denken,
weil meine Seele nach dir weint.
Möchte dir sovieles sagen.
Sovieles geben und doch denke ich mir,
habe ich es nicht verdient.
Meine Welt sinkt, geht langsam unter.
Jeden Tag ein weniger mehr.
Ohne dich wird es nie mehr schön werden.
Der Tag ist nur dann etwas wert,
wenn du endlich da bist.
Doch wann ist das schon, viel zu selten.
Viel zu selten Momente voll Liebe.
Viel zu selten Momente voll Glück.
Ohne dich kann ich nicht mehr existieren.
Kann nichts sagen und dich nicht vergessen.
Fühle mich einsam und gefangen,
nicht in der Lage weiter zu schauen.
Ausschau zu halten nach dem, was kommt.
Denn du bist nicht da.
Und ohne dich kann ich einfach nicht.
(c) 01.10.2006
raining1982 - 1. Okt, 20:45
